Drama, sad, children, cars

Still haven't gone to bed
All I want to do is sleep next to next to her but Im just so fucking sad.

So many mistakes ive made today and so much shit ive got to deal with.
Only plan is to keep on keeping on. What else is the other plan? Just to stop?
Wonder if any homeless are people that were in good situations and just gave up instead of killing themselves.
Decided today that ALL this shit, i could just give up. I dont want to give up my g/f or my car.
Just about everything else i just dont care about.
Local friends are fickle as fuck and not really friends.
Ive got friends online that ive met where i could rely on a few but what is someone halfway across the country going to do when im spiraling here with no one to talk to or really understand whats going on.
Family has long since abandoned me which ive figured out were never REALLY there for me in the first place.

I should be writing a book with my time about how NOT to raise a child. Typical first world problems but they just seem to fuck kids up in a whole new different level. A parent should never make fun of a child to try and get them to lose weight. It doesnt matter if you 10,30,50. Just try not to be a dick.
There may not be a book for raising a kid but there are simple truths people just dont remember.
I constantly see parents frustrated with babies/toddlers and they are talking to them as if they have taken high school English or understand what reason is. EVERYTHING is new to this fucking thing. Realise you should be raising your baby the same way you should a dog.
Un-ending patience, repetition, simplicity. Fucking people...

Have no idea why i started writing that
Guess its why i have my daily blog....

Another rant since im awake

Safety is killing cars....
They are now an appliance and restricted as such. Safety shouldnt START with the car like it does in the U.S.
It needs to start with our moronic drivers. When i had an office job i would constantly hear about stupid drivers from my coworkers. I would follow them leaving the parking lot and realize, THEY were the fucking people they were talking about.
So now, people point fingers outwardly in America. So now our cars at least 1000lbs more then they need to which is bad for the economy and ecosystem.

The car, in my opinion should be a FUN thing to drive where your audio is supplied by your engine.
If you want something to get you to work, we need a better public transportation system.

Working on selling EVERYTHING here so we can chase our dreams of a semi-socialist society.
Just a place where everyones got a job and is a contributing member of society all at the same time using realistic amount of materials.

You dont need 20 rooms in your house but you dont need to live in a tiny box either.
I think ive found a way to live minimally but comfortably.
Problem for me is that its impossible to live efficiently in this 1952 house.
So many little problems not to mention this space is just to damn big for 2 people...

Enough ranting for now. Maybe ill try to write my books.